Lies.

Have you ever felt like something was not right, yet the other person assures you it is?

Have you ever, even after the assurance, still feel like something is not right?

Maybe it's women's intuition, maybe its just coincidence. Honestly, i don't know what it is. What i know is that, it hurts and makes you feel really agitated and moody. 

Finding out truths about someone or somethings can be fun and really fills your curiosity jar most of the time ! Truths can be so comforting, yet disturbing. Truths can be joyful, yet hurtful too. 

Finding out truth can be really dangerous. You just don't know what you might find or what you might discover on the way. Especially if you find out the hard way. 

Yet telling people the truth sometimes takes a lot of courage. Takes a lot of guts to tell people something about yourself that probably only you know about it. Sharing that truth sometimes causes people to change perceptions of you and to the extreme, keep a distance from you too. 

Today. 

I didn't stumble on the truth about something. It was painted right in front of my eyes. Boy did it hurt ! Finding out that way and only after, really makes my stomach churn and the burning feeling to my eyes. 

Push push push ! Sleep it off and push it away from my thoughts. Too many things to focus on this week. Too many things to juggle with this week. I can't afford to lose focus at this moment. What's the use of moping around in self pity and hurt , messing up schedules and datelines? No, i will focus and forget about this. I used to care, used to confront and used to drama all over it. I actually would have, but priority wins. Focus! Because it is more worth it.